I’m trying so hard to stay strong but nobody cares.
I had to deal with verbal and physical abuse for two and a half years, verbal on the daily. I had people watching me wherever I went and was forced to spell a certain way and am not able to wear certain colors. I had all my money taken from me whenever I saw him. I learned to bottle up emotions so even I can’t feel them. Now I’m numb. I don’t know how to feel. I was raped by his so called “brother” and when i called him the next day bawling my eyes out having an anxiety attack you know what he says? “He’s just mad his baby mama wants me, I ain’t even mad. I’m not gonna do anything. I’m not putting my happiness on hold to deal with your bullshit”. he ruined me and stripped me of my happiness.
I hate what I have become because of my ex.